currently watching: Tokyo Ghoul, Zankyou no Terror, Kuroshitsuji Book of circus, Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun, Ao Haru Ride, Barakamon, Haikyuu!!, Free! es
breakdown // worries 
(s01e12/s02e09 parallels)


my tears are falling freestyle

It’s called l o v e.



You're the one that doesn't understand. 
It's you who cares about all that! I'm not you!


階段上り (by The Paper Crane)

Free! ES 9 in Nutshell

This isn’t what I’m swimming for. 

This isn’t what I’m swimming for. 

What dream? What future? I don’t have any of that.

This body comes with many inconveniences. But inconveniences don’t make me miserable! There is no reason for you to pity me! My life was put back together with alchemy by my brother. If I deny myself, that would mean I’m denying my brother, along with alchemy. I believe in the potential that alchemy holds. I want to believe in it!


haru’s dream is really painful on so many levels, but the thing that hurt me most was that it is such a normal, natural, human thing. in anime we’re often introduced to characters who would do everything for the spot they love, play with injuries and strive to be the best in the world. but that’s just it, haru doesn’t want that. he feels pressured into something he doesn’t want, he’s afraid that he won’t be able to meet everyone’s expectations, it’s all too much for him. the fear paralyzes him and he doesn’t swim at his best at all. his love of water, the feelings when he swims, everything disappears under the pressure and there’s nothing else but helpless anger and fear and it really hurts to watch him like that